Wow I have a boring life.
If I told you i tried to be a rapper, would you sit there a laugh at me. Or accept it and feel no need to judge what I wanted to be. Now I ask this question for many reason. But I feel I should give you four just like the seasons. One aka winter, I ask this question to see what your response is. If I’m correct It would be ” man your just following other people your a wanna be. Get from my face with all this, Learn some individuality”. Now I understand where you come from, but why don’t you say this when everyone chew the same type of gum or when everyone smokes the same stuff that starts to fuck with everyone’s lungs… hmmm strange. Two aka spring, is it worth it to crush someone’s dream just cause a couple people feel the same. But I’m sure they have many different reasons why they should enter the “game”. It doesn’t always have to do with the fame, it could be that person way to clear up all the rain or even the pain. Three aka summer, there are many low key lovers. Many you wouldn’t expect so they stay hidden under the covers. So they get that piece of paper and write you a love song but never send it cause they’re afraid. That you’d label them the same. For taking the time, to make a couple word rhyme and let you know your worth more then a simple dime. Last but not least four aka fall, put yourself in that person shoes. knowing what everyone’s reaction would be, you built the courage enough to tell everyone the news. Now I understand many people say ” i don’t care what people think”. But that isn’t always true. If you didn’t care why wouldn’t you take that raggedy car your parents got you instead of catching an attitude saying ” I’m not driving around in that so you can just stop.” Four reason and four season to explain that we are all hypocrites, and that we are all under the control of an unknown hypnotist. Learn to accept rather then reject and with that I end my lesson.
If I told you the amount of effort I put into everything i do you wouldn’t believe me. Cause all the result I get from everything i’m sure you’d call me a crazy. See I’m not perfect but I’m nicest guy you every meet. But nice guys finish last is what I’m starting to see. From what I hear I’m the lovey dovey type. The hopeless romantic that’s willing to give you everything in sight. But it seems like being who I am is starting to ruin my life. Failed relationship, awkward friendship, and the lack of positive experiences. Add those three together and I promise you’ll start asking what your purpose is. I love to say that this just a phase, but the way things are looking this just might be me all day everyday. Failed relationship yeah I’ve had my handful. Thought it would last long but boy was i a damn fool.
Baby this baby that “your not like other guys, omg I’m the luckiest girl alive.” Ehh I’ve gotten use to those typical lies. Awkward friendship yeah I’m involved in many. Try my best to stay friends but its like they don’t want your company. That moment you look them in the eye and see that expression upon their face that says what do you want from me. People ask why do you keep trying then and all I can say is cause deep down inside my heart wouldn’t let me abandon them. But you get no effort back in return.. Trust me I understand guess things can’t be normal like they were back then. Lack of positive experience lord this kid facing more rainy days rather then sunny. To point where nothing is a slight bit funny. Why don’t you just give up then. I can’t I’ve done it before but ending standing up trying again my friend. So if I told you the amount of effort I put into everything I do you wouldn’t believe me. Cause from all the result I get from everything I’m sure you’d call me crazy… Very,very,crazy.
I tend to ask why decision making seems to be so difficult. There’s many options when it comes to it,but you always end choosing the easiest way out, instead of dealing with the true matter at hand. You try to find peace with everything you got, but stop. What is the reason you can’t achieve complete happiness. Or is it that complete happiness isn’t really what it’s portrayed to be. What if our true meaning of complete happiness is different then the next person. Would you be quick to judge them, because you have been brain washed to think true happiness has one default setting, or will you listen and try to understand their own meaning. Everything we do in life we do it to reach the height of everlasting pleasure. The feeling to know we are truly happy with ourself. But one thing you should never mistake is that it will be easy, for all journeys have obstacles. And once you pass them it’s a clear shot to where you want to go. One thing I ask from you is to find out what’s your meaning of true happiness is, not the one you see on tv and movies… YOUR meaning and once you find out then there nothing stopping you from getting it.
- Jay Nostalgia ☁
My dream girl, you brighten up my day when I think of you. Somewhere in this big world but girl I’m gunna find you. See when it come to girls I can be a lil picky, but when I think of you everything is just perfect. From your smile, to your eyes , to curves, to your personality. I ask god is there such a human being. Is it possible, is it true that the girl i want is near me but I’m to blind to see. If so, girl scream loud so I can hear you, so I can feel you, so I can know for a fact there is a such thing as an angel. My dream girl, my condolences to your parents for making you. Without them lord knows what girl id be messing with. damn, will I go to hell for lusting over a girl I haven’t met yet or I did its just i haven’t noticed. Straight hair or curly, light skinned or Caramel, any race , no such thing as liking a specific ethnic group . Cause if your my dream girl I promise i love you for you and only you. I know it’s crazy for a 16 year boy to talk about a dream girl. But a I have a right to have a fantasy. And Truly I feel like she’s close, but for now I rather keep her in my dreams until I’m ready for such a girl. Till then my dream girl I pray we meet one day.
As time goes on we tend to think about our future. Where we’re going to be, who’s going to be the one you wake up to in the morning knowing their yours, if you reach your Goals in life, or just wasted the days you had to reach them. Many peoples say they live for the moment, but not knowing that the moment their currently In could destroy a bright future that lays ahead. See many say a lot of things referring to the present days but never think about the distance. When I think about that I call it so- so blurry vision. Because for the fact that you can see and think only today rather then see what you do that will effect the outcome of the next 24 hours. But who am I to judge how people spends their days, how they live their lives, how they expression themselves. Everyone lives their lives according to how they set the track for the train of life! All I am is a kid that ask you to open your mind and allow me to enter your thoughts and have them begin to melt to one great picture. And if my access is granted then I promise to give to nothing be mind blowing observations and my thoughts plus theories. What a journey it will be hope your ready.